Heavy Life...

I left here for couple days already, and my life went to genuinely hectic and burdensome psychologically and bodily. There are too many responsibilities on my shoulder now, and appears there is no one position I can put down.

I was bored about my regular full time work and fascinated by the task God plan me to do, but somehow I could not start by my upline mentor, I roughly know maybe it is my business schedule, but I just do not understand why people assume too much big words ahead and looks could not fulfill. They definitely require me to bring people in, why, why I did not educate myself and how I can virtually assure the people I brought in. God please show me to fact, I am willing to go on your trip, but I need your expert guidance.

Life seems stop here, I could not go further. I wish to go but the practical fact won’t allows me to go. My new place just could not be set, Jaimie will be here, and I do not how I can appropriately prepare school for her. I am so tired about my lifestyle, I understand I am pushed in somewhere, I could not go also. I have no energy to assume about my personal life, and I am questioning myself if I actually need a boyfriend or mate in my life.

I desperately want friends, good friends, life friends, but I am inquisitive about if there is true friendship in the universe. God I am sad, whacked, I need a break, I wish to take my heavy burden in my mind, let joy come back, but I could not….Sad.

Ok, I genuinely believe myself should take a stepping back, back where I am. There is something exciting in front, but maybe it is not good timing. Take a deep breath, doing some exercises outdoor.

I am happy I will meet my mentor Johnelle tomorrow, I am sure she will aid myself to resolve my life problems. I am not fearful of failure, and surrender, but I am afraid of cheating and deceit. I am still wondering what this new business is about, I need be alert, I require to see the fact behind the trade. God pleases helps me, assist me to go through the dream you assign for me.