Adjustment

It’s getting very tired mentally now. I had very heavy dream last night, there are too many things going on, I just very drowsy. I could not find any practical solutions. I basically recognize myself will go through all the problems. I do not trust somebody who will sufficiently perform for me to hastily set up my business and make easy wealth for me. I barely recognize myself must keep very clear mind, being attentive. There should be facts there, absolutely they are performing for themselves, and I more prefer honesty people, and I would prefer to know the bottom-line, “what do you specially require from me?” I know they want me to bring more people in. If you do not care about me, why you can professionally concern other people? I will take my way step by step, I still tell myself keeping clear attention, get obvious answer from them. I had short meeting with Davin, He is still a gorgeous person for me, because his personality made me could not refuse him being my friend. I wish this friendship lasting longer, not just because of finance corporation.

Many things going on in my life now, my home, Jaimie’s school, employment situation, orange people, commerce….Father, I am fatigued. I do not know how I can equitable comfort from those obligations in my attitude. Last night Millee and I prayed in FBC, she got very dull life too in her heart, I can perceive there are so many pain inside, she still is containing it, and could not relies. I essentially believe that, for many years I was hold all grieves inside myself, I could not let it go. It will take time, but ultimately it go, I am available. Now for myself, I involved in another circle in my life, I realize God need me to comprehensively study my life, my existence lesson, it will be tiresome too, but I must go through to build up my personality to fit into God’s pattern for me. There are just so many things I want to understand and getting around with people.

“I am crying because I have no shoes on until I saw someone had no feet.” Sure I am previously very lucky person comparing with so many others. All I apparently demand to do now is to keep going on my life, to retort what I should do, be strong, and keep endurances; there is no comfortable thing for me. Working hard, obtain what I wish. Being a good godly woman, independent, caring heart, inviting God inside my, generously assist me to bravely oppose all my trials in front.

• Jaimie’s school, stay with me and take sky train;
• Go to school to check up the area
• Full time work, change my attitude to enjoy my work, there is nothing I can convert others and statuses, I only can modify myself, and how to not be appealingly influenced by other people. Fair or unfair, I must accept it. On this weekend, do some researches online;
• Affiliate business, remaining eyes opening, taking time to blend in and study. Keep good friendship with my upline and gets to know his upline;
How to adjust my attitude it my priority in my current life.