Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Madness

I was so pissed off today at channel m for nobody taking responsibilities and put blame on me. I am the only person do the entire graphics work and saved the show on time on air. I was physically and mentally being tortured, for saving work, for my good heart working, there is no VP or head of production team members saying any words about appreciation, instead of blaming…

What’s means of executive producer, supervising producer, producer, VP…if I have big role to stop entire show on air, they should give me double credits.

I was sad by channel m situation now. There are Gossiping, no respect, blaming, stepping out for ownership, because they have rights and power to blame others. I only want to say is “F”. God please forgive me for my bad manner now.

ChaiTime Opening

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

911



Today is 911, got idea to watch movie “World Trade center”. It was sad though to watch such a movie and basically I know the answer. When police rush in the building to save people there….

I think the director is very smart to choose this name to create a center of attention of people, but I do not think the movie represented the Title.

Monday, September 11, 2006

2 am

ROSARIO FOREVER

Morning church, 8 hours fulltime work, 4 hours TIM design work…work, work….it is all my life now. I got a nice break, went to see Latin American Film Festival movie, called ROSARIO FOREVER



It is very good movie, but very depress. Comparing with Rosario’s life, my life is just working, working, I am the lucky one.

Emilio Maillé / Colombia / Mexico
Synopsis

Antonio and Emilio, two upper class friends, notice a woman at a popular disco. Who is this incarnation of temptation? This irresistible male fantasy? She is Rosario. Antonio, the introvert, and Emilio, the stud, succumb to the sensuality of this woman while she is drawn to their innocence and aura. Rosario, who has known only one version of life, suddenly sees things differently. Based on the bestseller by Jorge Franco
Cast

Flora Martínez, Unax Ugalde, Manolo Cardona, Rodrigo Oviedo, Alonso Arias
Festivals and Awards

Best Picture-Cartagena International Film Festival, 2006
Bio

Emilio Maillé was born in Mexico and has lived in Paris since 1980. With studies in literature and cinematography, he was the assistant director for several television and feature films before directing his first documentary, Los Años Arruza, which received the FIPA award in the Biarritz Film Festival in 1997.

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Porcupine



“If you want to eat me, I will stick on your nose.”
Poor Doggy…

"Crank"

Crank - “Beijing Cocktail”

Poison in his veins. Vengeance in his heart

It is very different movie, Fast. Hyper. Action-packed. Drug-induced. Insane. Crank is all these things, and extremely entertaining too. No doubt a movie made just for the guys, it's filled with guns, car chases, sex, random humor, nudity.

It is very good editing.

Directed by
Mark Neveldine
Brian Taylor

Plot Outline: A hit man (Statham) learns that a poison injected into his body will kill him if his heart rate drops too much. Now he must exact his revenge on the people who injected him before he takes his last breath.


River Queen

Director: Vincent Ward



Cast: Samantha Morton, Kiefer Sutherland, Cliff Curtis, Temuera Morrison, Anton Lesser, Rawiri Pene, Stephen Rea, Wi Kuki Kaa, Mark Ruka, Tyson Reweti, Grayson Putu, Nathan Passfield, Laura Coyte Douglas, Julie Ranginui, Brandon Lakshman, Kayte Ferguson







Plot: New Zealand, 1868 - a country in the midst of a war between British settlers and the Maori tribes resisting the colonization of their lands. At the furthest outpost, a young Irish woman's life is torn apart when her son is taken from her and brought up river by his Maori Grandfather. Unsure whether or not he is even alive she continues her search for seven long years. Caught between two sides, RIVER QUEEN tells the story of a woman's struggle to choose sides and her journey to win back her missing son.

Good movie though.

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Chai Time

Live Hindi Show, my design work:




Hectic Period

Life has been super busy, so many responsibilities now. Channel m new live Hindi show will be launched on Monday, and it made me crazy. Basically because of the producer indecision, they pushed me to the end and I finished entire work within five days; I was physically sick and mentally be tortured.
Good news is I got a part time job, design for Team In Motion company weekly at home. Few online meeting with core people in the company, they all are very happy with my work; Church work is on my way; Orange studio….God I am very tired.

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Wisdom

"It's far better to tell the truth and be rejected, than to hold it back a d be accepted”

Drinking your orange juice is a triple treat for your heart. Orange juice is a great source of vitamin C, potassium, and folate that play key roles in helping to reduce heart disease risk factors. A cup of orange juice contains 124 milligrams of vitamin C, 75 micrograms of folate, and 496 milligram of potassium.

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul is strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved.

The Seeds of SUCCESS are sown in fields tilled with FAILUR

Emotional abuse is present when the abuser undermines the victim’s sense of self-worth by critiquing, name calling, the silent treatment belittling, and making and breaking promises. If these actions in any was describe your relationship, you need to take a time-out and re-evaluate the relationship

Self-confidence is also a wealth, which you can invest in your business. In fact it can be considered as the basic need in your business program.

Live every day as if it were your last. Do every job as if you were the boss. Drive as if all other vehicles were police cars. Treat everybody else as if he were you.

Most are unwilling to sell their souls; but they usually aren’t opposed to renting them out for an hour or two.

"If life gives you a lemon, make a lemonade”

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Question for Quixtar Business

I badly can believe how matters turn down abruptly, utterly beyond my control. Just few days back, I was so fascinated about the business I will involve in and could not wait it will occur soon. It is very upset though, my faith completely destroyed. I asked God if it is Holy Spirit working on me to effectively move everything down.

Reading God’s story Daniel 4 this afternoon about King Nebuchadnezzar, how God turns everything down suddenly if people just do their own work, and showing their own power instead of lift God on the most high. Without God, we are nothings, it reminds me my situation now, without putting God first, and everything will be turning down. Worldly successful cannot please in God’s eyes.

There is big thing I think it is totally wrong by Davin’s word:

“Do you consider you can find the answer by going to church?”

“God has big plan for you to help more people, do you think you are doing graphic design, or help church, or for mission can help more?”

I do want to help people in my entire life, I only do what God ask me to do, no matter how hard it is, but I am sure God has plan for me, if this plan is truthfully from God, He will generously provide everything I need to fulfill His task on me.

sad though

Flying without any restriction, who can do that?
The lucky one can be. I am lost again in somewhere in my life; it is quiet sad though.
What am I seeking?
Dreams, goal, lover, family, friends, happiness….
There is one thing I know, I need friends at least, good friends, I need God.
When I lost everything, I am still the lucky one, because I have a very good friend who loves and cares about me unconditionally.
He is faithful, his name is Jesus Christ.

Monday, August 21, 2006

中文測試

兩天將近20小時的工作, 終于可以輕松下來。
Chai Time的設計終于有點眉目了, 很累, 很累, 本來計划今天睡個懶覺, 結果還得一大早被Peter叫醒, 送他到机場, 他要去旅行了, 澳洲, 好幸福呀。回到家, 接著睡, 把7天的覺要補回來。。。。

Chinese New year ID

This is my Cartoon work for Chinese New year ID 2005.

Friday, August 18, 2006

Relationship

I am kind of away from here for few days, there are just so many things recently occurred. I had big argued with my supervisor and primarily I strongly believe she treats me unfairly at work for long time. I authorized myself this is the last time to tolerant this kind of situation and if I eventually bring up those matters, I require to have at least three solutions to readily figure out this problems. I am presently working on this now.

I had arranged meeting with Fenton and Davin for the new business, I were welcome to join their big family, I am stirring about this, I basically know I will learn lots of things soon, it is just so good. I assume there is no any business like this one to be around with marvelous people and mentoring by them spiritually and realistically, and they supply big time on you and your commerce. I am so thankful God to bring me to here.

I am still learning how to build up a good relationship with people, and I apparently assume everything is basing on how the relationship effectively achieves. We love God and God loves us unconditionally, it is ideal relationship, to receive his abundant love, we should spend more time with Him, and we can know more about God; As we living on the earth, we should build up a relationship with our environment, such as all creatures, tress, water, air…good relationship can significantly improve both parts, then world can serve us more pleasant living circumstances; Same as human being, good relationship can produce people’s life easier and happy. God is right, love has no fear, love cast all the shadows, as soon as you put love to all around, you will receive love back; if you fear to love others, you won’t receive. For my perception now is Love is to serve others, serve as much as you can; give more than receive; go down to earth, humble yourself. In here I particularly thank my dear friend's great love and understanding.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

The Gap

When I got chance to be invited into multimillionaire, Dean Kosage’s mansion, I found there is no big gap between us, same people, down to earth.




When I looked at those celebrities photos hanged on the wall, who was helped by Dean, I knew there is a big gap between us. It is not wealthy; it is the result.





When I asked him:"you are such rich already, so what's your dream now?"

he said:"I want to help more people to be my stage."

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Walking by Faith

"Whom having not seen, ye love.

We walk by faith, not by sight.--We love him, because he first loved us.--We have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him.--In whom ye also [trusted], after ye heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation: in whom also after ye believed, ye were sealed with that Holy Spirit of promise.--God would make known what [is] the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles; which is Christ in you, the hope of glory."

God is love, God is faithfulness and unchangeable.

Friday, August 11, 2006

Friday Afternoon

I am exciting like playful child today because I finally took a big project to do for channel m, whole graphic package for new daily Hindi show. It has been for a quiet while, I have been only performing bored work, daily news, subtitle keys etc.

My co-worker, Mike is back from his vocation from
Flores Island. He stopped by to say hi to me, he got lots of sun tan and appears he immediately put weight on somehow. I am sure he had very fun there through his big smile. He kept claiming: it was good though, you must try. If you desire to go, I will pass all detail info to you. It is a quiet island, beautiful beach and solitary. Go to Humming Bird Hostels, you will initially meet the owner, he is a Japanese fussy guy, and living there you must have humor senses

Then he hurried away: I got to do kayak tonight

I was amazed how normal people enjoy their life in Vancouver.

Seattle Meeting



Toqua's dad. Chief Seattle








Classic Kerry Park viewpoint









Bell Harbor Marina







Seattle Public Library
Architect: Rem Koolhaas
Location: Seattle, Washington

My up line Davin called me toward to Seattle for business trip, arranged meeting with Dean Kosage who is supper rice guy. I understand they are all very good people and unique, and people obviously expressed that I was blessed by knowing them, and I believe in it. I am still asking myself if I can be a commerce lady. I consider myself is “性情中人”, which means I just do what I like and I do not do what I do not like; I was consistently driven by feeling, enthusiastic passions and emotions, sometimes this is not good. With realistic comprehensive glancing, I can effectively obtain better conclusions.

There are so many things I would prefer to do in my life now, my visions, traveling Europe, learn art and history, seriously return school, create a new business, etc. I pray for wisely use my time.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

London



Hirst's 35ft-tall, 13-and-a-half-ton Virgin Mother at the Royal Academy of Arts in London

London-West End


A huge statue of Freddie Mercury currently graces the facade of the Dominion Theatre in London's West End. This is because the Dominion is home to the musical 'We Will Rock You', which is based on the music of Queen.

London-Richmond



London-South Bank, Notting Hill

Notting Hill Carnival, London.

London-Kew Garden





London-Greenwich



"The Painted Hall features some of the finest baroque paintings in England, executed by Sir James Thornbill in 1707-17 and featuring the monarchs William and Mary, surrounded by allegorical figures symbolizing the triumph of virtue over vice.

The Chapel, rebuilt after being damaged by a fire in 1779, is in neo-Grecian style, with statues of Faith, Hope, Charity and Humility in the vestibule and a vast alter painting by Benjamin West, St Paul Shaking Off the Viper"

UK


Europe


From now on, I will make my trip to somewhere everyday to venture the world, I know I have no time and budget to go, but I can dream about it. My dream place is Europe. There are 34 remarkably diverse and exciting countries there…

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Wall Art


At the Tubac, Arizona Art Festival, 2006.There was a long wall of this sort of art inside a small gallery in Tubac.

Smiling Moon


Have you every seen a tilt smile moon face hanging on the scattering stars sky? All I am thinking is there is a beautiful lady Chang Er living inside the moon from Chinese legend.

Loving Friend

I know there are lots of pigeons inside your shirt…but they are flying away, you are looking for them.

There is pleasure parts in lives is to get to understand people. He is gentle, soft, patient, and quiet, supportive loving person. He has his film dreams. Being with him, I can feel secure, relax and comfort, and I can be myself. There are so much fun be memorized, all silly childhood recalls, joked with buddies, families memories, “bug and fish”… he is passive and "aggressive".

Peter will go to Australia on August 21 for over two weeks; he broke his heart with Martin. It is tough though, and I know this is his way to move on.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Flora's Float

It is unique, neat; I consider it is integrated piece of real art, green house with boathouse combines together. I am just curious what type person is living inside, she or he absolutely love three things, flowers and ocean, plus art.

Long Weekend Adventures

I explored all the thrilling adventures, it was very good though, relaxing and stirring. From Vancouver to Horseshoe bay, taking ferry to Langdale, Gibson, Sechelt until Earls Bay. It was only three days, but what all immeasurable experiences I achieved are beyond the limited time. After you were sleeping inside car for whole night, then you realistically understood how luxury it was when you got a room with TV, swimming pool, furnace, puffy bed; After you were driving for whole day, then you will appreciate how lavishness it was when you can lay down on the beach to get sun tan, and do not need concern about anything, just jumping into ocean for fun; After you were away home for few days, you will realize how luxurious comfort home is, especially there is only one bed inside…

It was crazy that people were getting out of town for long weekend. All ferries are booked up, all hotels, accommodations, camping sites are gone, and you have no place to stay. Now I completely understand the reason, as I received the effect, I am more calmly relax and refilled now. My body is innovative. Life is full of adventure, sometimes we encounter it by accident, sometimes we made by ourselves. We always learn through what we experienced. I more like making my adventure than I am waiting for the fact come.
Gibson

Friday, August 04, 2006

Adventure Vancouver Island



When I look at this map, I realize there are so many places I want to adventure, I want to go and I recognize I do not have so much time left. God created those land, I want to go to see God’s arts.

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Hello Ji

My animation Opening for Punjabi Show "Hello Ji:

Monday, July 31, 2006

Life Moments

There are always some moments in my life I don’t want it go or I genuinely aspire I can especially retain it always, or pause it. But we know precious point never can halt and continue. That is all passionate feeling about, and all the feeling build up our life and remembrances, then whole life will be like a non cease flow river, make a circle and a circle, maybe I can current lost myself somewhere one day, but eventually I realize I am still in the same circle or I assume I am on the right track. Love always is a essential theme in our life, we are growing and we are comprehending to love others more.

Spending few weeks’ Saturday with Thomas, movies, chatting, friendship, overall impressions are soft, there is no intensive impacts there, but there are so many caring and loving. I strongly believe there are definite purposes God arranging people in my life. And we have primary obligations to others. I am truly wanted to carry out my partial duty to make friends happy. With strongly thankful heart, I am so thankful God for bringing such person in my life now. I feel more releases from my daily burden, and feel more comfort to be with him, and appear more enthusiastically enhancing myself.

Davin’s girlfriend Amy is still in struggle with short memory from ski accident. He told me, the people who take care of Amy do not believe in God, he is sad about that. I pray for them and her.

I had BBQ at lam’s house last night with international group people, we had openly discussed how international group’s directions are, and people supply lots of good ideals, and we pray for FBI at end. I am sure God taking care of International ministry and it will be on God’s track.

Jean told me she met a new boyfriend, because she is afraid of this person who maybe does not like her son, she automatically made a lie. Why people sometimes make lie, because they are fearful of losing. Sometimes we must let factors go, and we must willingly accept the results explicitly we do not want it occurred. Karen broke up with her boyfriend. She did not show up at church lat Sunday. Peter went out for fun last night; I was just too anxious about him. I realise it is not proper, but what I can do, people should response for their personal behaviors.

I feel my brain look like a bomb now, too much thought dances inside. I hope to manage my life, and I am the only one who response myself.

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Fight With My Life

I am observing ordering myself now, leaning things and fight with my life. I won’t rely on any human being. There are so many gorgeous and incredible ability people around me, I am so fulfilled of them. Ben is my example, He is always fighting with his life, and he is such generous and responsible person. He is never ending pursuit his visions and continually keeps extensively learning facts. Julie is another example; she is seeking her film dream and gave up her good job. There is only 2% people will previous accomplishment in their existence, most are ordinary, I desire to be the 2%, and I eventually hope I can be a person who can improve others.

Calling mum last night, she was distressed, I hope to liberate her; this is my duty to do. She seemed had peace after my phone call.

Looking at myself, I simultaneously understand I did not give up yet, I am still fighting with my life. I am drained; God knows everything, because God wants me to be His people.

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Adjustment

It’s getting very tired mentally now. I had very heavy dream last night, there are too many things going on, I just very drowsy. I could not find any practical solutions. I basically recognize myself will go through all the problems. I do not trust somebody who will sufficiently perform for me to hastily set up my business and make easy wealth for me. I barely recognize myself must keep very clear mind, being attentive. There should be facts there, absolutely they are performing for themselves, and I more prefer honesty people, and I would prefer to know the bottom-line, “what do you specially require from me?” I know they want me to bring more people in. If you do not care about me, why you can professionally concern other people? I will take my way step by step, I still tell myself keeping clear attention, get obvious answer from them. I had short meeting with Davin, He is still a gorgeous person for me, because his personality made me could not refuse him being my friend. I wish this friendship lasting longer, not just because of finance corporation.

Many things going on in my life now, my home, Jaimie’s school, employment situation, orange people, commerce….Father, I am fatigued. I do not know how I can equitable comfort from those obligations in my attitude. Last night Millee and I prayed in FBC, she got very dull life too in her heart, I can perceive there are so many pain inside, she still is containing it, and could not relies. I essentially believe that, for many years I was hold all grieves inside myself, I could not let it go. It will take time, but ultimately it go, I am available. Now for myself, I involved in another circle in my life, I realize God need me to comprehensively study my life, my existence lesson, it will be tiresome too, but I must go through to build up my personality to fit into God’s pattern for me. There are just so many things I want to understand and getting around with people.

“I am crying because I have no shoes on until I saw someone had no feet.” Sure I am previously very lucky person comparing with so many others. All I apparently demand to do now is to keep going on my life, to retort what I should do, be strong, and keep endurances; there is no comfortable thing for me. Working hard, obtain what I wish. Being a good godly woman, independent, caring heart, inviting God inside my, generously assist me to bravely oppose all my trials in front.

• Jaimie’s school, stay with me and take sky train;
• Go to school to check up the area
• Full time work, change my attitude to enjoy my work, there is nothing I can convert others and statuses, I only can modify myself, and how to not be appealingly influenced by other people. Fair or unfair, I must accept it. On this weekend, do some researches online;
• Affiliate business, remaining eyes opening, taking time to blend in and study. Keep good friendship with my upline and gets to know his upline;
How to adjust my attitude it my priority in my current life.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Advertising Your Business

“A Burden is always on your head and a responsibility is always on your shoulders. So it is always easy to bear something on shoulders.”



Advertising -Your - Business

Attention getting tactics for advertising your Home business

When you start a home-based business, it is essential to gain an edge over other competitors offering same products or services in the market. In order to attract customers to your site you will have to promote your site through advertisements. If you do not advertise, you will end with nothing done. Even though there is great range of products in the market, new products and service are conceptualized day by day. Even if the quality of the product or service you offer is the best, it will not gain attention from the customers. Without advertisement, there will be no sales and no revenue. This is the reason why the companies spend millions of dollars over advertisements. A product, which is not advertised, can easily get lost in the competitive market.

The small-scale business establishments, personal trades and home businesses are often under constraints of advertisement budgets. However, it need not always be so because, nowadays advertisements that are both inexpensive and expensive are available to your choice and needs. The basic idea is to get the attention of the public. Nowadays there is a definite trend for digitalization. You can create a domain with an attractive dot.com and file your site to free web directories. This can add great value to the products and services you are offering.

One effective method for advertising home based business on the Internet is to try Shared advertising. Here you need to find out people who are also in need for product exposure at least expenditure, and merge your advertisement along with their product. This method gives definite benefit as long as you differentiate your product well from the others. This method of advertising can be less expensive. Here you can be convinced that any surfer to come to visit the other product or service will definitely have a look at the one which you offer. Shared advertisement is very common on the Internet as they appeal to the same target audience. The more advertisers you share with, greater the exposure of your product.

The Internet has become the best choice for people to conduct business. There are many cost-effective methods for advertising through the Internet. Effective advertising methods are essential for promoting a product on the Internet because here the customers cannot virtually see and feel the product. Using banners with good designs can prove effective. Well-designed banners can attract more attention from the customers and provide credibility to the product. Advertisement through webzines and blogs can also attract the attention of the customers to a great extent.

Whichever method you follow, it is essential to see that the advertisements are clear and impressive. It should state all the qualities of the product in a clear and crisp manner to attract the attention of the customers.

Monday, July 24, 2006

I am tired...

God I want to tell you, I am gloomy, furious, weary, I deeply undergo I was squished, had no where to go. I evidently know that I am in tribunal now. My supervisor provided me inequitable treat, and some people around me tries to push me in the darkness. Families’ crying out, child was stubborn. Love people stepped away. What I’ve done, I offered all my heart to people and offspring, why the unexpected consequences are too sad. I tried to ordain every one jolly, but they just want to urge me away? Life can never been normally imagined the style you require, continually to go other side. I typically identify father you told me to what I should do, this is only I can do, no matter how the particular statuses are, love people as you rule; I cannot vary the issues, and I only can receive it and confront it. I can significantly modify myself. So many nightmares for many nights already, I am exhausted.

Friday, July 21, 2006

Heavy Life...

I left here for couple days already, and my life went to genuinely hectic and burdensome psychologically and bodily. There are too many responsibilities on my shoulder now, and appears there is no one position I can put down.

I was bored about my regular full time work and fascinated by the task God plan me to do, but somehow I could not start by my upline mentor, I roughly know maybe it is my business schedule, but I just do not understand why people assume too much big words ahead and looks could not fulfill. They definitely require me to bring people in, why, why I did not educate myself and how I can virtually assure the people I brought in. God please show me to fact, I am willing to go on your trip, but I need your expert guidance.

Life seems stop here, I could not go further. I wish to go but the practical fact won’t allows me to go. My new place just could not be set, Jaimie will be here, and I do not how I can appropriately prepare school for her. I am so tired about my lifestyle, I understand I am pushed in somewhere, I could not go also. I have no energy to assume about my personal life, and I am questioning myself if I actually need a boyfriend or mate in my life.

I desperately want friends, good friends, life friends, but I am inquisitive about if there is true friendship in the universe. God I am sad, whacked, I need a break, I wish to take my heavy burden in my mind, let joy come back, but I could not….Sad.

Ok, I genuinely believe myself should take a stepping back, back where I am. There is something exciting in front, but maybe it is not good timing. Take a deep breath, doing some exercises outdoor.

I am happy I will meet my mentor Johnelle tomorrow, I am sure she will aid myself to resolve my life problems. I am not fearful of failure, and surrender, but I am afraid of cheating and deceit. I am still wondering what this new business is about, I need be alert, I require to see the fact behind the trade. God pleases helps me, assist me to go through the dream you assign for me.

Monday, July 17, 2006

very tired

Got overwhelming weekend at Portland, I’ve learnt a lot: how to fight for dreams and goal, how the attitude is important than business, how to dealing with loving friend and own feeling… there is just too much. I am very tied. I realize there is too much pressure on my shoulder even I thought I could not afford any more. God please help me, show me what to do.

I saw God’s plan for me to go on for it, but I know it is not easy, but the words coming out to me, put faith on, does not matter what happened, do not give up. I know I will face many trials now to go on this business, this godly business.

There are trials:
1. Physical tired;
2. Passion seems gone;
3. Could not see the future;
4. Should spend more time on and I do not have time;
5. There is barrier between me and upline, because I need spend more time with them;

God, I am very depress right now, please help me and show me the strengthen.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Key Steps

There are few important step changes in my life made me today:

• Kid was born changed me from a girl to a woman;
• Marriage failure changed me from independent to dependent woman;
• Careers change made me reconsidering myself value;
• Firmly follow Jesus gave me peace and joy;
• Twice big move made me stronger…etc

Life is combined with key steps, I have many steps called key step in my life, I consider people are more important in my life than things.

What I consider my life, there is nothing regrets and there are more good in the future, put heart on each day, truthfully honor your self and others.

A Gloomy Day...

There are some things I am not satisfied with my current life, and I am struggling. Such as, I do not like my working shift schedule, I work in the evening, and I cannot get chance to be social with friends; I do not like people gossiping behind, I do not understand why some people are so enjoying chitchat at back, when they talk about others, their eyebrows are dancing, their face is flying; I do not like people exaggerate, brag…I am struggling with one kind of business, people talk about dreams, and vision, and seem they will help you to fulfill your dreams; the reason I am struggling is those people are so nice and kind, there is nothing wrong with people, just I still do not understand what this business is, how they can help people to fulfill their dreams, what they really want from you, why they want to help you. God never say He can help me to fulfill my dreams, He only say he will supply all my needs. Tell me what the behind. I already put my efforts on it, because I honor those people I met, they are great people from my understanding now, I would rather to make friends with them instead of business. I am so struggling, God show me the way and answer me.

What a gloomy day, intensive work. One day is almost gone. Ding Guo brought up the weekend Interactive show topic, “Are we living for work?” I do not think we should live for work, but for the most people, work is very important, which is the source of supporting daily bases; it is essential foundation for your responsibilities, raising kids and taking care of olds. We suppose living for god’s tasks, because we are made by God and god has goal for each of us, just sometimes we are not clear the goal.

There is more good than bad in the future, I always think in this way, there is more expectations and excitements tomorrow. I will go to Portland for business meeting tomorrow; it is such nice to have a break in the other land, and seeing some unknown people and having business opportunities. Life is good, just sometimes I need to sink my heart and mind. Pray for me if you know me, for my trip safe and happy.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Jesus is love

“Gentle Jesus, meek and mild… Jesus – so loving, so compassionate, and so sacrificial – is the definition of gentleness and humility. In a world gone and with aggression and violence, Jesus stands out as a most loving and caring person.”

I often have curiosities what kind of love Jesus commands us to have, what kind of caring person God wants us to be.
• Sacrifice
• Giving
• Not selfishness
• Self control
• Offering what you have
• Give people what they need
• With open heart
• Serve

I frequently ask people what you expect from me, I really want to know what you want, and I can precisely offer, I can offer in various ways: being loving friend, being a support, being a big sister, being a reliable prayer, being a helper, being a lover. Jesus is love, he is no fears to love people and offer all what he can supply, he is passionate, he is wisdom, he is power, he is everything… there is no fears to love people.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Amazing love

"Amazing Love how can it beThat you my king have died for me"

I just want to thank God in here for all the amazing love he supplied for me on this wonderful weekend, with Thomas went to Art gallery for first nation culture, stories, history; Peters tennis tournament; Pennys life stories, Wimbledon, my hero Roger Federer win the final match with Nadal; Sunday worship, fellowship with church friends; learning roller blade with Lilian, and with Michaels help; Millers home swimming party; met very intelligent person Fenton, with great lead ship ability, and went through whole business concept; also had great time with Davin at Fenton's home, met kids, and other business partners, Karen, Susan, Nick.. it was amazing that how God arranged people around me and help me out for everything. And also I can help people out in some ways too. This is the life supposed to be, to see people happy and fulfill their dream is my goal. Thanks.


Thursday, July 06, 2006

Love and Sacrifice

Nice walking and chatting in Rice Lake this morning with friend, quiet, peace. Thanks God, He answered my prayer, I finally got chance to learn how to check my car tires. I am strongly believing that God arrange people in my life has his purposes, sometimes the assignment is tiny, but it’s good. In Christina family, we help each other to grow, and support each other, like Jesus said we are brothers and sisters. I also learn there is no fears for love, love always bring prosperity harvest. Love is not selfish, love is to give, to support with your heart. Always wish the best for people. My friend told me I have glow; I do not think I am perfect, I am a sinner, and God cleanse my soul and my body. I try do my best to live a good life in God’s way.

My friend brought up a question, why Noah curses his son Ham? Because he gospel his father’s nakedness, he did not cover his father, like other two sons, he feel his father’s drunk without cloth on is a shame. God try to teach us in here, we should cover others, not just when they need help, also when they are in embarrass situation, we can not proclaim their embarrassment, we must try to help them immediately. We must never feel ashamed about our parents, they are getting old, they are not younger anymore, wrinkle all around their face, if I were rejected by my kid, how my heart will be crashed. Same as our parents. That’s why Noah curses Ham, for his non reputation, for his shame feeling.

I am seriously thinking about working for Church, I wish God can answer my prayer. I know I am not good enough to do it, but I have heart to learn. Friends out there, pray for me.

Julie resigns from channel m work, big news for me. I had chat with her after I receive the news. I can see she has big smile on her face, I am very happy for her. She has her dreams and goals, she wants to involve in film industry, she has strong mind. Sometime we need to sacrifice something to fulfill our dreams. Once I had calling from God six years ago in Beijing, God told me, I must sacrifice myself. What’s that mean? Time passed by, I am still wondering, but I clearly know from that point, my life was changed, and joy came back. There is no regret to walk on God way, never.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Self Control

If you want to know me, get here to see me. What you will know, what I will be.

I think I am in trial now. My heart was driven by passion; we are human beings, we need passion to love, to do things, but we can not let passion to control our life, any decision should be based on directed by the Holy Spirit. Before entering any circumstances, you should have much pray.

When I am cool, I am not happy with my heart.

In 1 Corinthians 7:5 Do not deprive each other except by mutual consent and for a time, so that you may devote yourselves to prayer. Then come together again so that Satan will not tempt you because of your lack of self-control.

1 Thessalonians5:6 So then, let us not be like others, who are asleep, but let us be alert and self-controlled.

Lovely New friend

I met a very lovely person in my life now. I am so thankful God. I know God arrange people together having his own purpose for each other, not by coincidence, and they carry on their own assignment for each other. Right now I am not clear what our mission for, but I believe there will be abundance blessings there for each other.I will settle down my blog home here now, to thank for my dearest new friend.I wrote down my dream and life goals yesterday, actually I think goals and dreams are belong to young people, who has lots of dreams about world, as soon as you grew up, being mature, I more likely living in present, not dreaming too much. When I started thinking what my dream is, I found that I am still a dreamer and I am young enough to embrace world. I do have dreams; I want to fulfill it before I die. Maybe this is my mission God assigned to me:1. be ready to welcome Gods coming; (very very important)2. be free of my daily survive, financially;3. tell my parents and my kid how much I love them; living with parents for awhile to make them happy before they pass away;4. I want to see my kid becoming a good, self independent people in society;5. I want to have a lovely family, lovely husband;6. Ask people forgiveness;7. Sold all my belongs to travel in the world with my lover;8. Help people for what I can supply;9. Open up a charity organization in China for counseling people who are suffering, especially woman;10. Learning god's words maturely, and preach Gods kingdom to world;11. If it is possible, I would like to set up a Christian school for children;12. Love people with whole my heart;13. My gift is I have a strong sense of heart for people, I would like properly utilize to serve people.

Monday, July 03, 2006

Temptations

Reading an article about how we face temptations:

"A victorious Christian life may still be a tempted life."

Temptation comes when we are drawn away by our own lusts (James 1:14).

There is something we must realize. As long as you and I are in this physical body we are going to be tempted. Realize there is no sin in being tempted. Realize you and I do not have to YIELD to temptation in any way. Remember sin is a choice. (Let's be honest. I'm a human being and I've sinned before. I know how this thing works.) I have a choice. If I'm tempted to do something wrong, I can choose to do right and God will empower me to keep that choice, or I can choose the wrong and Satan will eventually enslave me again.

To walk in the Spirit means to live in prayer and in the Word of God.

The Lord would have us call on Him when we are faced with temptation so that we don't sell out to the enemy. He wants to help us so that we do not have to face the problems created by our sin. Even if we fail, God will help us get up and go on and can turn what Satan meant for evil into good. However, it is better that we do not fall into the pit to begin with as we will be spared much suffering and sorrow.

Great message. Do pray, asking God for strength and wisdom to defeat various temptations in my daily life; handing over all circumstances to God, let Holy Spirit guiding me, and show me the truth. Sin is a choice, but God is love. Let God be the chooser, then we will win the battle in my life.


Pray for me

Nice sunny day, went to church worship, church picnic, and playing tennis with Lillian. Movie night with bunch of churchs friends. Superman III, full day again.Nasa invited me to go to coastal church picnic after morning service. I knew Nasa for 5 years, he is from Iran. I consider he is a godly man, he has very strong faith on God and he has very simple life; but somehow he has problems with church people. He left FBC for some rumor reason; I do not know what exactly happened. He was very upset. For my understanding, we should love people like Jesus loves us, people should not think about what this person had done in the past, and treat this person badly. We are all sinner, we are all not perfect, if you think you are better than others, then you make sin again, because pride is sin. We should humbly serve others, especially poor people.I completely understand Nasa’s feeling, but we should put faith on God, not people. For me I only care about how God think about me, not people. I found myself silly to write my journey in here, especially English is not my mother tongue, and I am still learning. I am writing, because I want to talk to God and report my daily life to him, my joy and my sadness. Dear heavenly father, I know you command us: do not disturb your heart, go to peace. But somehow my heart is not so calm now, because my emotional feeling, I need pray, I need to hand over all my feeling to you, let you in control.I pray in here for those people who need pray, I pray for Michael, I wish he will have a wonderful family, has many kids as he want; I pray for Jenny, I hope she can overcome her emotional pain love feeling; I pray for Lillian, I wish she will get her new job; I pray for Nasa, receive Gods abundant love, and take those negative feeling inside about people, love them with his whole heart; I pray for Davin, safe trip and success in business; I pray for Helen, finding new home in Vancouver; I pray for all my family, God keep them safe in China. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Save our earth, home

Beautiful day, playing tennis, had business meeting, new project coming in, had a movie with friend little bit regret missing church event.An inconvenient truth is a great documentary, gave us impressive message, globe warming. If this warming continues, we all well face the deadly consequences within 50 years; our children will suffer our consequences:More than a million species worldwide could be extinction by 2050. Global sea levels could rise by more than 20 feet, we will loss lots of green land, Beijing, Shanghai, New York, Vancouver etc will be burry under ocean. Nature disasters will happened often.It is terrible. Actually we can do something to reduce the pressure on earth. We can moral obligation to do so; small changes to our daily life can help to stop global warming. I should take some action from now. This is for our earth home, for our children:There are ten tips to do:Change a lightDrive less (I will walk more than drive0Recycle moreCheck your tires (I should learn how to check my tires first)Use less hot waterAvoid products with a lot of packagingAdjust your thermostatPlant a treeTurn off electronic devicesPlease check www.climatecrisis.netThis morning I went to Stanley Park to play tennis. I saw a lady there by herself. I know she loves playing tennis, because I saw her many times, just have no chance to chat with her. I asked her to play with me, she was very happy and we had good time playing together. Her name is colettee and original from France, she has been Canada for over 30 years. She talked me about work, life, past. When I asked her if she wants a family, she seems regret to answer me that she already passed the age of having a family. I know she wishes have a family. I will pray for her, God I need a family too.Time passed midnight, still have lots of things need to report, got messages from old friend, I could not do anything. Had very nice chat online.tiredzzzzzzzzzz

Friday, June 30, 2006

To an Old Friend

It was sad Friday night, back home earlier from work. My brother Peter is not at home, quiet. I need silence, I need to stay alone, and I need to face all my sadness, missing family, homesick, for the one I have lost. I often ask God why I am so weak, why I am afraid of the life in front me sometimes; I know I should put all my trust on Him.I read the message from my old friend this afternoon by accident, delay message always made me so sad. Then I ask myself why I could not get this message earlier, or on time? It was happened long times ago, for me it was long, longer enough to let me think about. Once I was so brave to jump onto a bouncing bed, I was so fascinate about how the bed bouncing me up, but when I was back to earth, the bed was not there anymore, my legs was broken, my heart was crashthe only reason was fears of love. God said love with no fear, love cast all the shadow; love your neighbor as your brother; lay down yourself to your friendsI am still a baby, fall down on my way, God is so good to calm me down to huddle me, and teach me how to love people and the one harmed you, because love is no fear. I am so thankful for those people on my journey, taught me lessons and being a great gift in my life.


Working for God

Mopping floor, cleaning window, packing all the glasses, plates and cups...what's this work for? I am working for God. God has purpose for each of us everyday; He sets up every opportunity for us during our daily bases. We all have our major job, we also have things to do for friends, family, helping people out, we do things for ourselves too. We maybe enjoy our work or not, feel boring, or tired, sometimes we think work is less importantthink of this way, we are doing work for God, because he set up all the work for us. Treat each work as God's assignment; you will fully use your heart to achieve the task.Always think this is your last opportunity, such as when I met new people in the tennis court, I always told myself this is the last opportunity I play game with this person, I must do my best, I must fully enjoy it, I must fight to win each point.When we cleaned the apartment this morning, sun pouring upon the carpet, we are singing, Jonelle said to me: Joanne, we are working for God. Yes, indeed we are working for God. this is my lesson for today and for my future. I am so enjoying and happy.

Thursday, June 29, 2006

God is so good

You can not change the past. Whatever has happened in your life so far-both good and bad can not be altered, and the decisions and events that you made you what you are today are indelibly inscribed in the story of your life.I never regret for what happened in my past, I believe all the endurances will eventually be gone, and I will overcame it, and I truly believe with God's help, all my life chores will be sort out, and put in God's way. With God's amazing love, I embrace all happiness of friendship, passionate love feeling, and curiosities about the world.For the past half year, I've learned all good things, let the past go, gave all my sorrow and grief to God, ask him for help, because keeping grief inside, eventually my spirit will be broken up, which not delight in God's sight; Ive learned how I can be patient to wait for the godly mate chosen from God for me, I am more enjoy to spend individually time with God, I invited Him to be with me in my every minutes, fun part and weak moment; I've learn how to work precisly and supply perfect work to people; I've learned how to be diligent to my life and truthfully living every day. God is so good, His love is the best in world.I wish my journey would be the witness of living God, and I wish God could use me to be His light in the world.This morning I helped my mentor Jonelle moving. Its gorgeous day. I met few of her friends, lovely people.

change myself

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Woo, I changed myself today, I was so happy. All my colleagues gave me different opinions:
· You are cool girl now
· You are sexy…
· You are opened
· You are hot now
· You are different than before….

I do not understand why my personalities was influenced by my hair's change. I am wondering how people consider a new people, through their outlook, or their inside. Anyway, I feel so good today, because I made myself happier and change.